i think i need to attend an intensive crash course on " HOW TO BE A TOUGH AND MEAN "
damn…coz apparently , im just too nice!!not many ppl would say this..hehe..well not many ppl from my past would agree though!! hahaha and prolly a few is laughin their heads off!! hehehe…but its true!! i’ve been getting it alot lately, im too nice!! hehehe
don’t you think so ?
don’t you agree ?
That life is a real bitch sometimes….
at any time of the day….anywhere…and anyone..within earshot,heck even if it s half way across the continent…be it someone you know or you dont…
there’s always some bitching going on eh ?
well…i bitch about life all the time…its like i need something to do to kill time which i don’t really have much to spare in the first place…..
Some trivial matters can either drives me NUTS! or makes me HAPPY =)
Something like a someone driving a car in front of me,going at a very slow pace and unable to maintain driving in the proper lane..thus making it difficult for me to over-take him or her!! That just drives me BANANAS!!
ppl always think that a female driver is usually a lousy one!! well most are!! hahah but not all….heck alot of male drivers out there even WORSE , they should really go back home and practice more on their PS II before venturing out into the real world. (^_^)
or something as simple as going into Popular and coming out with a few books, real good bargains especially , like Jane Green’s books , 3 for only RM69.90 - WOW! a real bargain!!
that would just make me SMILE =)
well…bitching can sometimes be a real pain but at times it kinda makes us human….sane…. ??
The days seems to be clearing up pretty nicely….the welcoming rain..it feels great…..i hope it doesnt over-rain ( if there is such a phrase ^_^)…its great to finally be able to see the clear blue sky….clouds….buildings!! haha
Lets hope it stays this way…. 
When we can actually see clouds……
when we can actually tell the colour of the sky…….
when the view from the top is clear…
when you can see the building…
why does one need to work ??? why cant one just have enormously ridiculously horrendously huge amount of money to spent as one wish ??? why one has to work for a living ??? cant living be just plain living ????
sometimes i find work enjoyable and very rewarding. especially when i was still teaching. of course there are times i thought i was in the wrong line of work .hehe..but after a good night’s sleep , a new day begins! so new challenges will come my way.
but eversince i have taken on this role which i now assumed , i felt draining. i dont get as much satisfaction as i once used to have while teaching. I guess im having one of those moments again " Am I in the right line of work ? "
this person i just met recently , a hi-bye kinda friend told me this and i qoute " Being a Teacher is so Noble " ….hhmmm….sounds so grand doesnt it ?? sure did felt that way at times. It was in a way very rewarding coz in some small ways , one has touch a persons heart. which makes me recall about my former school teachers. I do still remember how my kindi teacher , Ms.Saroja was such a sweet lady and Ms.Teh so always nice too. I remember my Std.2 Teachers , Puan Aishah and Ms Chew ;they were both wonderful teachers too.
Most of all , i remember my Std.1 teacher , Puan Sariaton. She was a real hell-on-wheels that was for sure. She was one of those teachers one tend to hold grudges agaisnt. And i must confess, i have never really forgiven her for making my life in Std.1 a real torture. I know i know , its about time i grew up and forgive her. Well….i guess in some small little ways i may have already forgiven her. And yet , i have not forgotten about it. At times i wish her ill which then makes me feel guilty so therefore i choose to wish her nothing for what goes around will come around. Then there was my Std.4 teacher , Puan Sarimah..i think..hehehe she was another erm…something on a wheel too! haha i recall the nicknames my friend and i have given her , " Karipap " why ?? if you guys were in the same school that i was in and you know me, then you would know why SHE was given such a nick!! heheehehe well we were kids then.
And in secondary school , my Math teacher , Pn Latipah was another " Oh-My-Gawd-Hell-Is-Loose-On-A-Wheel-And-She-Is-Being-A-Real-Bitch-With-A-Chalk " kinda person. i hated her guts and she probably felt the same.She was always a acting and behaving like a person with a stick up you know where kind of person.hehehe =)
And then there was Mr.Arul , our history teacher. He was strict alright but ,i did in some ways enjoyed his lessons. i dont despised him as much as i do with Latipah! hehehe i remember any students i meet from STAR nowadays , i would ask , " Is Latipah there ?? Is she pregnant again ??? " hehe its a lil joke , coz she is practically pregnant every year!! must have been .,…erm very fertile! hahah ok ok im being mean but heck , she was a real meanie too! hehe
It may seem like i remembered these teachers whom i am not so fond of and some , i practically hated their existent but i do recall teachers whom i have grown fond of. Teachers that make life in school a little easier to get by. I guess these teachers , even those i….ok ok..i used to say it all the time " HATE " realised that we have in all these years that have gone by,still recall them.And the fact that we hated their guts and yet they are still in our memories kinda makes its a good thing. But hey, who wants to be remembered for all the bad things right ?
I guess in both good and bad ways , teachers whom have taught me has left a little imprint in my heart. And that is a good thing.
And sometimes i wonder , if i may or may not be as fortunate as to leave a lil print in some of my students heart as well……and then with all the years that has gone by , would they still remember me ?? i hope for the good stuffs!! haha
but it was meeting teachers like Sariaton and Latipah that makes me recall how much i used to hate teachers! i mean , i hated their guts! sometimes i felt like driving a truck over them..well back then that is…hehe
and here i am , i have a career as a teacher! erm i mean i was a teacher…..erm wait i still am. well..technically..i do still teach =p …Ironic right ? a person who hates teachers end ups having a career as a teacher ?
Anyway,I have always felt that the " Primary Years " were so much more enjoyable to that of our " Secondary Years ". When we’re younger, everything is more "HONEST " and " REAL " . And the only thing that mattered was that we had FUN!! things changed once you get into high school. your friends changed,so do you. your pririoties changed! your mind-set kinda changed as well. I guess it has got to do with all those "hormonal’ changes one goes throught once hitting puberty.
but all those were just chapters in our life….its what makes us who we are….for the better or worse….
