TAGGED
i’ve just been TAGGED!!
whats tag ? no no..not the watch although i wouldnt mind =p well apparently when you get TAGGED, you need to do a time line about yourself…hmmm…now why on earth would anyone wanna know anything about me and my past ???
oh what the heck, not many ppl read my blog anyway,so i can just say it!! =p
ok..here goes ;
1980 : December 20 to be exact (ahem!! ) was practically forced into the world! And my first word was " WaaRrgGHHHH!! " crying!! hehehe typical!
1985 : erm…only 5 years old then. Obviously i was a little cute girl!! hahaha..i know i know " perasaan" but i was like everyone’s pet coz i was like the youngest and eager to pleased ppl!! why ? theres a scientific explaination to it but nvm..hehehe but being the youngest, i was also constantly being bullied!! sigh
1990 : i was about 10 then. Had a busy life in school!! hahaha My primary school days were the best part of my childhood and while growing up of course. Back then everything is so much more easy-going and not as complicated.Friends were sincere,teachers were nice except for a few (-pls refer to my previous blog "A Noble Job…" and you’ll understand ("/) )
1995 : 15 yrs old. a F 3 student. Secondary school started well but as it proceed,things went a little down hill. Ppl changed. Friends changed. Our priority changed as well. Our goals changed. Ppl you knew back in primary school suddenly became a whole different person. I guess its because at that age , we all changed. For better or worse its just part of growing up. As much as i would loved to stay in the good times , i guess i had to learn to let go. So i did.I let go…..but unfortunately i did not forget. sigh My teens were just the begining of how life can be so difficult and cruel…
1998 : Finally survived SPM. Started college.Left the past in the past and move on towards the future. Seeing my teens were one of the darker period in my life.I enjoyed college. I made a few life-time friends who are still my best buds now. I started teaching. No one thought that i was ever gonna choose a career on teaching!! heck! neither did i! i always saw myself as a successful business-woman. I was either running my own business or prolly climbing the cooperate ladder. But no , i had to go into teaching. Its a long story.
But it was during teaching , that i had experienced one of the better periods in my life. There were ups and downs most definately. Ppl were mean and some were nice. Children!! they can really give you headaches. But at the end of the day , you know gave your best and you can see that in some small minor ways ,you have changed the little boy/girl ’s life. Isnt it great ? i can be teaching a child the same sets of alphabets the whole month and still the child couldnt get it but eventually when the child did , you have the great sense of satisfaction and that you’ve accomplished something.No matter how hard the day was,at the end the children come up to you and gives you a hug. aaarrhh, i miss them. a whole bunch!!
2001 : My great escapade to London for a whole month in winter!! fantastic!! The weather was great eventhough it was winter. I enjoyed myself so much!! i missed London. The year i celebrated my 21st Birthday in Scotland! In a little hostel called the " Sassy Lady " or something. First time drinking alcohol and finished it in one go. well it was a mixture.Smifnoff!! Vodka + Lemon Juice.Still my fav to this day. i had my first snip of wine. red and white. The first time i had haggis! ( a tradisional dish in Scotland ) someone told us if were going to Scotland , we must try it!! well..it was….erm….i….it…aaa….iii…interesting. The first time i saw snow. We spent Christmas and New Year back in London. It was fun. The only unfortunate part was , seeing that we werent at the country-side, i did not get to have my Winter White Christmas. Thus i did not managed to make my "Snow Angel " sigh. Well it was a year for many first-s!! hehehe
2004 : No longer a full time teacher.Running a centre for other ppl. Had planned to start my own but was unsucessful and when the offer came about, i needed to give it a try. A real adventure i would say. Big transaction from a teacher to a manager. I ran a kindi before but this was so so much more different and much much more challenging.
2005 : Now. Loads of ups and downs happening. A real roller-coaster ride. On the verge of really breaking down. On the verge of frustrations and anger! On a the verge of many many things. Trying to keep up with appearences. Trying to face each and every day bravely.Kept falling down and getting hurt. Wounds have yet to be recovered and yet i fell again.Everytime i tried to stand up,something bigger blocks my way. Fortunately i have a few really good friends around to support me. ( R , Ms.J and Chris - wouldnt know what to do without you guys. Appreciate its a whole bunch ) and MOST IMPORTANTLY having my family around me to support me. My mum and dad and sis, these guys are the pillars of my sanity for witout them,i’ll prolly be nuts by now. =)Im so close to giving up. Im really so lost sometimes. Its like being in the middle of the sea and theres no way to go. Everywhere you turned,there’s water. You start to blame everything in sight. Including yourself. Why me ? Havent i been doing enough ??? whats wrong ??? i dont need these craps and bollocks!! i deserved better damn it…..i do….
2006 : Hope things get better. Perhaps finally get recognise for all the efforts that i have contributed. And getting or leading a life i deserved. And be Happy =)
2010 : Hopefully still sane. Hopefully having a better career.Hopefully a better life. Should be driving a bigger car then, my personal fav , a four-wheel drive. =). Should be with someone im madly in love with and who loves me just as much. We would be sharing a great life together. We would be living in a great house with plenty of rooms and spaces so that i can have atleast 3 dogs around.Or perhaps even in some foreign country leading a care free life?? who knows.
hmm….very long eh. Getting tagged seems erm interesting. never been tagged but finally got tagged. did my time line. Mostly suck but brought back tons of memories in which this has no space for! hehehe
ok,who do i tag now?? who who ?? who even reads my blog ??? are you ppl ok ?? =D
nvm,erm here goes,
1. Lisa
2. Alice
3. Simon
4. Uncle KL Wong
i dont know anymore. Well anyone who would like to do it,just go ahead and consider yourself…TAGGED!!
p/s : I would have tagged ya Mei Ling but you’ve already been tagged.hehehe
